Monday, October 6, 2014


I think back 12 years ago, it really does seem like yesterday.  A not so normal Dr visit, 2 days past your due date turned scary. Extremely low amniotic fluid, baby's dropping heart rate and emergency c section. What an entrance you made on Oct 7th, defiantly a beautiful little blessing from heaven. You were here and I had a life time memories waiting to be made, the future was to be filled with joy, laughter and many blessings.

Your future had already been made, your destiny set in stone, this was nothing I would have wanted but your life plan was already set. If I could it would have been changed in a heart beat, If I could change places with you, consider it done. Prayers were the only thing I had control of because there was no such thing a control when you have a child diagnosed with cancer. 

Jacob it brings me to tears to think today is your 12th birthday, all I have are memories. I could only imagine how tall you would be, your personality, how handsome you would have become. I know your spirit would be bright, just as it is now, leaving imprints with people

Always remembering your laugh, hugs, your goofy personality and you telling me 


Remembering Jacob, lighting a candle in his memory ^i^
Love you always (<---------this much---------="">)
Always pulling strength from your memories.



Saturday, February 1, 2014

Missing you!!

It's hard to believe that it has been 4 years since Jacob went to be in Heaven, there are still times I wake up and think I forgot to give Jacob one of his pills or we missed a Dr appt. There are times I just can't shake that feeling that there is something missing, yes my precious boy Jacob!  There is never a day I don't think about Jacob, wish things could have been different, but I know this was Jacobs roll on earth, short it was but lots of lives changed.

On Feb. 1st 2010 at 11:35pm our lives were changed forever, Memories are what kept me going.  Jacob's BIG beautiful smile will always put a smile on my face.

Heavy on my mind today, love you so much & miss you always!

I go to bed at night hoping & praying I will see him in my dreams, if it was only for a quick hug and a "I love you"!  It is the littlest things I miss!

Thank You for your continued prayers and support!

Jacob, Always In Our Hearts

Tuesday, October 1, 2013


It's hard to believe this Oct 7th will be the 4th birthday we celebrate for Jacob with him in heaven.  He would have been 11, wow 11, I think how he would look, his personality and what he would be enjoying, so much wondering.  It hurts just to think about it, but I know he is in a much better place and will always be looking down on us  :o)

This year, I am doing it BIG, I will be doing a fundraiser to celebrate what would have been Jacob's 11th birthday!  Come on down, bring the whole family there is so much going on!!
We will have a DJ, food, a lot of great Vendors and so much more. If you want to help with donating items for the bake sale I would appreciate it   :o)  We are having wonderful items from each of our vendors for our raffles, you can't miss out on not buying raffle tickets. You do not have to be present to win.
Our event Facebook page:

El Cangrejo "Nice"
$2.00 TACOS & $3.00 BEER

MUSIC BY Dj Hypnotik

Leukemia and Lymphoma Society

Music by Dj Hypnotik

Lisa Michel -Origami Owl

Linda Lamarre -Lamarre Boutique

Amy Marie Vassale -Scentsy

Marsha Landeros –Arbonne

Debbie Guy -Amazing Grace Gifts & Fundraising

Tim Evans -American Warrior Clothing

Kirri Obert Lingenfelter -Kerri A Photography

Michel Gonzalez Lynch -Sweat Heads USA


Suzie Rands Cook -Norwex

Ada Hau –Mary Kay

Frank Balurdi –Pampered Chef

Lisa Carosa –Juice Plus

Gigi Flowers - custom made wooden playhouses for a really reasonable cost!

Julie Stark - 100% Natural and 100% hand made goat milk soap

Angela Nitsche  - Damsel in Defense
Kirri Obert Lingenfelter -Photographer

Diana Weeks -Celebrating home

Sherry Haycraft -PawFolks K-9 Kitchen

Paul Miraldi –Tiki Heaven

Isabel Grigsby – Teddy Essentials

Jodi Chen –Empire Rose Soap Co.

Ginny Bartlett – Monkey Boy Industries

Lisa Scott –Boutique 29:11

Lori Zierden –Duck Duct Bloom

Diana Cooper with Lia Sophia Jewelry

Michel Lynch -Sweat Heads USA

Fabian Razo  -RAZO'S MEX ART –Garden Decor

Juan Vera with Down2Scrap Clothing /Shur-fit Mouth guards

Jen Freilich -At the end of your leash balanced dog training 

Denise Artukovich -Javita Coffee

Starla Buenalez, eyelash extensions

Annette Ruiz  - It Works

Carmen Irene -My Monkey Business

Scott Howey –Beach Body

Shawna Hennessy – Corona Physical Medicine (951)735.3553

Ron’s Balloons –Balloon twisting

Veronica's Face painting
Raquel Gongora with Tupperware 

Lysa Loza with KL Designs

Suzie Cook with Norwex

Julie Hoffman with Thirty one Gifts

Kailee Aguilar with Miche Bags

Raven Hernandez - Halloween items 

Valerie Contratto with Primerica Financial Services 

Blake Blinkin / Blinkin Toys - Rubber band guns

Monday, October 1, 2012


Yes we came home about a month later, once Dillon mastered the suck, swallow & breath technique and got to 5 lbs they wasted no time to send us home.
We all settled in just fine, it’s been 10 years since I did all this with Jacob ^♥^ Just like riding a bike it all came right back. A lot of emotional moments, remembering when Jacob was this small. Jacob was also 5 lbs when we brought him home, I love all the memories. These are all the memories I will be sharing with Dillon as he grows, all the wonderful things about his big brother Jacob now in Heaven looking down and watching over us. ^♥^ Dillon’s 2 mnth appt on July 27th went well, he got his first set of immunizations, screamed bloody murder but was fine after I held him. He is growing so fast, he weighed 7 lbs, 11 oz & 19.25 in.
About 2 wks later we had a huge scare, we noticed his testicle was swollen and trying not to let my mind go to a place it should not I quickly got him to the Dr’s. (this is why I HATE BEING A CANCER MOM) My anxiety, fear & stress level just grew as the Dr tells me I am not sure what it is, there is a lump there, could be a hernia but we can usually push a hernia back in *GULP* (just relax Melisa, don’t go there…..telling myself its nothing) and to make everything worse the Dr did not want me to take Dillon home, she wanted us to go straight to ultra sound to see what was there. If you can only imagine the state I was in at this point, an emotional train wreck and to make matters worse the U/S tech needed a second opinion on what she was seeing, as I sit there holding Dillon I completely “LOST IT” My prayers could not be heard enough!!!!! What really sucks is that the tech’s cannot share what they see :0/ I did ask but no, got nothing, so we go home and wait for the test results?? OH NO they said they had to send us to URGENT CARE….WHAT!!! WHAT ARE YOU SEEING?!?!?! At this point I just wanted to start screaming at everyone, it did not help we were already there over 5 hrs. SSSOOOOO we finally see the Dr and find out it is a hernia, ALL THAT FOR A HERNIA!!! BIG sigh of relief, thank God!! So Dillon does need surgery and it will be set 1 or 2 days before Halloween. I just want to get this past us and I don’t want any more hospital stays. Dillon is growing & changing so fast and we are loving every moment! We had his 4 mnth appt on Friday September 28 he is doing great and catching up quickly to the normal growth chart, he weighing 11 lbs, 10 oz & 24in.
Thank You for your continued prayers, Melisa

Tuesday, June 12, 2012


It’s been a couple of months since my last update on my pregnancy. Since my results coming back good on my amniocentesis I have enjoyed and was more relaxed with my pregnancy. I have to say my pregnancy has been easy and I was looking forward to going to full term with this little boy. Well he had different plans, I went in for more NST appt on May 29th and then they sent me over for extended monitoring in Labor & Delivery to find out his heart rate kept dropping and coming right back up. This is so scary, not to mention stressful, I was like not again!! This is how my last pregnancy with Jacob ended, granted Jacob was 2 days past his due date, but it still ended in an emergency c section. So any ways with his heart rate continuing to drop the Dr did not feel comfortable letting me go to find out my baby’s heart had stop. Of course my little life inside me was my first priority, so when she told me we need to do a c section tonight I agreed. I had my concerns about how early he was going to be, but at 34 weeks & 5 days they told me there should not be much to worry about. Of course there could be some small concerns but we just need to get him out and go from there. It was about 5pm and things moved quickly, I was in the OR about 2 hours later being prepped for the c section, with so much running through my head, just praying please let my baby boy be ok!!! They pulled him out SCREAMING, what a great sign, he came out perfect and YES HE WAS HOLDING HIS OWN and we were told he was doing great!

MAY 29TH 2012 AT 7:17PM
3 LBS 15 OZ , 16.9 IN LONG

He is still in the NICU, not sure when he will be coming home, it could be another 3 weeks and only time will tell. He needs to eat fully from a bottle, sometimes he comes close to taking a full 2 oz bottle and other times only half then the rest goes into his feeding tube & his current weight is now 4lbs 8 oz.  A brain scan was also done last tues, this is normal protocol for preemies and they saw a shadow, they do not know what that could have been so they are re-doing it today, please pray that it is nothing.


Thank You for your continued prayers,

Friday, March 9, 2012

A sigh of relief...time to enjoy my Pregnancy!

Sorry I have not updated sooner, I called for my test results before my actual appt on Feb 29th. I had not heard any thing and was really hoping that no news was good news. I new it had been 2weeks since my Amniocentesis and I was not waiting any longer!! So on the phone I waited for 10 min while they found my test results..UGH, the nurse got back on the phone and proceeded with with the results, I started to cry and with such relief I told her THANK YOU, THANK YOU that is all I was waiting for!!! Yes the tests came back normal! What a stressful 2 wks, I was just glad it was a happy ending with good news. I really feel like I can now enjoy this pregnancy with all the movements that my little one is doing. I can't wait till he is here, so I can hold, and kiss him. The start of a new life, "WHAT A BLESSING"!!

Its a little scarry going into the 3rd trimester, this is where we are going to have to keep an eye on my blood pressure and swollen ankles. I just can't believe we only have 3 months left, time is just going by so fast and it is all so exciting :o) Here is a pic from my last scan
Thank You for keeping us in your prayers!! Melisa

Can you also keep this BEAUTIFUL baby boy in your prayers, his name is Dalton and he was DX with severe partial Trisomy 13.

Monday, February 20, 2012


I went it for more genetic testing last week (2-15-12), due to the fact I am at a higher risk with this pregnancy. They did a level ll ultrasound; they checked the brain, heart & other organs, hands & feet. The Dr said everything looks good and our baby boy is measuring on target. The Ultrasound did give me some peace of mind knowing everything looked good. So with one hurdle down, I also had the Amniocentesis done to get the genetic makeup of the baby done, so yes now I am stressing about getting those results, praying everything looks good and we have a healthy baby boy. When it comes to my kids, all I want to do is make sure I do everything in my power to make sure they are OK. With Jacob I fought long & hard for him and we still lost him to the STUPID CANCER, I always felt so helpless and now I have this little miracle growing inside me and once again I feel so helpless. Not a thing I can do except wait and pray. The fear is so strong. I know it is a lot to ask, I just want to move forward with life with my pregnancy with no red flags. The results of the Amniocentesis takes 10 to 14 days, so maybe the end of next week we will have those results and I can put all this worrying behind me.
No mistaking it's a BOY!! 18 WEEKS 3 DAYS **THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONTINUED PRAYERS** Thank You for keeping us in your thoughts & prayers, Melisa